Exam's officially over today. Yay! or not.

Anyway, holiday resolutions!
Been planning all these since I-don't-remember-when and here they go:

• work out everyday to cut down my belly fats and build some abs. :D
• read read and read. I bought some books months ago pending me to read up. :D

• travel! I met up with an Italian traveler who travels the world with his motorbike. Had a good chat with him. I'm so inspired. The last word he said to me before leaving Kuantan is 'go travel!' Yeah, I should absolutely do that.
• get a job! IF I can find one. I seriously need to do something to make some money so I can save up or something to realize my dream.
• start playing tennis again. Tennis used to be my favourite sport and at least one sport I'm good in, in my whole life. I suck at sport since young, I can't run fast nor I have enough strength to take part in the competition during sports' day at school. I'm weak like that LOL.
• need to house train the new pet I got yesterday. It's a male Shih Tzu which my dad's friend gave us. I still have no idea how should I toilet train him. He's been pee-ing anywhere he wants in the house and my family has been busy cleaning up the mess.

His name is Panther. HEHE

• start preparing for my resit papers. I know I'm sure I didn't do well in my exam this time because I did not go all out for it. I did last minute work instead.
• do some volunteer works. I'm still not sure what are there to volunteer but if there is, I would participate. If you know any, count me in! :)  

Hopefully this long holiday is a productive one. So much to do, so much to try out.

Signing off! Turrah.

Joanne


Listening to Yoseob's while rushing for my final preparation for tomorrow's paper because his voice never fails to warm my heart and at a time this, minimize the nervousness I'm having. :)


A listener sometimes need to be listened too.


Stuck in the middle of nowhere,
I'm losing myself,
bit by bit,
as time goes by.

Fuck this shit.
I'm not in this world to live up to other people's expectations, nor I want the world to live up to mine.
Life at home sickens me gradually.
I hate being tied up in the same place forever. Don't take it in a literal sense. Here, I mean the comfort zone.
I always want to be a little bit more independent. But I never have the chance to.

Now, I miss having that someone whom I can share almost everything with and at the same time understands how I feel and what I want.

Exam is not even in my thoughts these days.
I gave up this time round.
I don't want to feel stress and I don't want to worry about it.
I'm tired of having needed to worry about it.

All I want now is to finish the papers and get my holidays started.
I have so many things I wanted to do, wanted to try out.
Perhaps a spontaneous escape to somewhere new, somewhere I'm not familiar with?

Signing off.

Joanne


如果能更早把心思多花在值得我去珍惜的人身上；
如果我能够早点找到人生的目标；
如果我一开始就选择另一条路；
如果我做人不是那么后知后觉，

那该有多好。。。


Started my day earlier today.
Nothing like having a McDonald's breakfast accompanied by the breathtaking scenery at the beach.
This is the little thing in life that makes me feel bliss especially at time like this. :)

Two more days till my exam officially starts.
I think I'm sorta giving up this time round.
I'd like a fresh new start if circumstances allow me to.
This year hasn't been going smooth enough. I'm talking about my studies.
And a lot of things happened to people around me, be it family or friends, good things or bad things.
Well, i'm not blaming these events because to do so means I'm giving myself excuses which, I don't want myself to be like that.
I don't wanna complain anything I'm having in life right now.

Looking forward to the upcoming lunch date with one of the dearest. :D
This girl has been a good listener to everyone of us during high school.
Now I wanna be her listener if she doesn't mind sharing with me her happiness as well as her sorrows.
Signing off.

With love,
Joanne


At a time like this, I feel like running away, to some place where no one can find me.
I'm so sick of question these days, any questions, I just can't be bothered to answer any of them.

There are some people keep asking me the same question 'when is your exam?'. Boring~
It's on the 15th, next Friday! And then they will ask 'so how's your preparation going on?'.
Usually when it comes to question like this, I will just laugh awkwardly to pass.
Reason being I don't know what to answer, or rather I'm not sure what answer SHOULD I give because I don't wanna upset them, some of them could be those who have high expectations on me.
These expectations suffocate me.

That said, I really am not prepared.
Been eating a lot since I'm home and enjoying life like there's no tomorrow.
Yesterday was the first day I started doing revision seriously. Procrastinating much.
Exam? I don't know what I'm thinking at the moment. But! I'll still try my best to kill it.
4 subjects, I planned to dump one of them. Meaning, I'm planning to fail it.
It's called the power of letting go and moving on.

A lot of events happened around me since was home.
But life goes on.


I might not be good enough to lend someone my shoulder but when a friend needs it, I'm willing to. Really.

Joanne





Stress level right now:
Numb.
I'm too stress that I can no longer feel it anymore.
Subconsciously hiding it because I don't want to live with it.

My thoughts right now.



I'll end with something positive, a random thing I discovered about myself recently.


xoxo,
Joanne

My name is Joanne. A soon-to-be-21-years-old.
I'm a law student who is still unsure about the future.
A girl with strong self-esteem.
Music is my all time best friend. I love food and desserts. Travel is my passion.
I wish to backpack travel the world in the future.
I always have crazy, ridiculous thoughts popping up in my mind. I'm a good thinker.
I like to be alone most of the time. Okay, I'm weird.
Of course, I do enjoy chit-chat sessions with some of my close friends, especially when I'm stressed out. I'm emotional. I cry watching sad melodrama, I laugh like psycho if I find something that I think is really funny.
I'm a nature lover. I was a sea turtle volunteer in Redang Island back in August 2011.
I wish to visit at least one island each year.
Now I have plans to get myself an open water diving certificate and to learn how to surf.
I swim, I play tennis, I skate.
I love trying new things, new food but not drugs!
Adventurous.
I'm more a listener than a talker.
I have a great sense of humor.
I like cool people. I have soft spot on guys with sunshine smile.
I get drawn easily to people who can sing very well.
Always love to inspire and be inspired.

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